Things Happened So Quickly

Things happened so quickly! I didn't even have time to process any of it. Neither of us did.

We played with something very fragile.

We dropped it to the ground with our unthinking action and

I noticed only later my unhealed projections.

It pains me now to look back at that moment.

We could have done things so differently...

It pains me now to see that a flourishing connection could be so quickly disrupted.

Your walls of protection were immediately put up

And I began to act like nothing happened.

Let's just forget and ignore it all.

But can I really ignore it? - I can't.

Memories fill my mind,

turning my stomach sick.

This is so uncomfortable,

So embarrassing.

I want to write you a letter with all of my reflections.

But what is the point of it?

I want to apologise,

But what for exactly is not so clear.

I want to write you a letter,

But I am not even sure where or how to begin it.

Written: June 2017